As I have said in one of my previous posts, I am having to decide between pursuing my passion right away and simply leaving behind my academics. At first I was quite confident that I can make it in the music industry, as well as make the music industry itself. I have actual connections ( which the Philippines' entertainment industry so require) and the looks and talent for it. The people around me are actually supportive. And some of which are capable of helping me and my boy band out.
Today, I was driving up north for a party my mom is attending. With the not so moderate traffic, I turn in to my usual habit thinking. I was thinking about how I will be able to finish my papers with this busy holiday season. I was also wondering if I could still make it for next term's scholarship. For quite some time now, I've been fine with the thought of not being able to re-enroll. But today, as I drove. I'd realized profoundly that no matter how good and capable I am of making it in the industry, it's still all a chance. It requires risk.
For a minute, I felt scared. Then came into my thoughts, why quit? Why give up? It's only less than three months to go anyways before graduation. I felt so scared that I was going to end up failing both my acads and music.
But isn't like about taking risks? Isn't this life too short to waste on conformity to the demand of money? Would it still be living if I just did what the world oh so subtly dictates? That wouldn't be living. That wouldn't be me.
If I was alone, I'd be fine taking the risk of failing. But then I don't want to disappoint my parents, relatives, friends, and maybe even my self. Though, this doesn't mean I'm not going to pursue music. It just means that I'm going to try my best to fight for this last 3 months of studying. So that I'm safe. The industry is always there. It can wait three more months. Heck, it's already waited 19 years.
Today, I was driving up north for a party my mom is attending. With the not so moderate traffic, I turn in to my usual habit
For a minute, I felt scared. Then came into my thoughts, why quit? Why give up? It's only less than three months to go anyways before graduation. I felt so scared that I was going to end up failing
But isn't like about taking risks? Isn't this life too short to waste on conformity to the demand of money? Would it still be living if I just did what the world oh so subtly dictates? That wouldn't be living. That wouldn't be me.
If I was alone, I'd be fine taking the risk of failing. But then I don't want to disappoint my parents, relatives, friends, and maybe even my self. Though, this doesn't mean I'm not going to pursue music. It just means that I'm going to try my best to fight for this last 3 months of studying. So that I'm safe. The industry is always there. It can wait three more months. Heck, it's already waited 19 years.
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