Hello, readers. I'm surprised I have nearly a hundred views. Thank you everyone! I'm assuming none of you are regular readers, just some random reader who happened to get caught onto my tags. But if you actually are, then thank you! I really appreciate it. Maybe you're halfway around the world and I wont even know.

Right now, I'm feeling quite hallow. I don't know why. Nothing's wrong. My friends are around me. My family is complete. We're financially stable. I am doing well with my studies. But something is missing. I just don't understand what. From hindsight, where I am now is fantastic. I guess it's just been all routinary.

I haven't felt like this since high school. Maybe this is just the meds, but albeit, it has led me to my sentiments. This had me thinking, maybe it's time I found her. But I just can't. It's so hard. I always have this hope that I will find her one day, that everything will feel right. That everything I've been expecting will be present in this woman. And all my idealistic dreams will be fulfilled, my foolish hopeless romantic dreams. That I find her in the midst of my regular everyday routine, that the perfect weather, cold wind and sun, just fits the occasion while the sun rays are perfectly beaming behind her. I meet her somehow, and I ask her out for coffee. Once in the cafe, we sit in the outdoors tables and just have the time of our lives, laughing at everything and finding that we share the same vision for life. Then, we would be realizing that we would be stupid to let each other go. My friends will have high regard and approval of her, and her's the same.

But... no. I'm still here. I'll be waiting. :)